Worries

So...turns out that Sunday was not the only bout of blood I was to experience, and it may not be the last. I've been worrying and stressing a bit, feeling lost and at my wit's end with what is happening and why. I feel frustrated too because bleeding in the second trimester is abnormal, but the doctors keep saying everything is fine and it just happens sometimes and just don't worry and relax. That is easier said than done, you know. How can something be normally abnormal? It's frustrating!

So..all the research I've done just comes up with doom and gloom, so I just stopped looking. It wasn't helping my stress level at all. My mom found this forum of several people with almost exact situations. One of them said something that really made me feel better: "I share all of this not to scare you - not to make you totally freaked about trusting the care of doctors...but to encourage you to be mindful that sometimes you won't have an answer for 'why', and it may be best to just RELAX (so important), because too much investigation CAN be harmful. And I guess also, yes - I do think you also have to be careful to not always take doctors opinions as 'right' - you have to do your own research, and trust your own instincts." I guess we don't have to know why, as long as the end result is the outcome we so desperately desire.

The forum if anyone was interested in the other stories. The last comment on the second page is mine. The only thing about that site that wasn't helpful was the updates on those people's stories. If they carried to term, if their babies were born healthy, if they continued to have bleeding...It seems like a lot of them were having bleeding like mine from their 15th week (same as me) to their 20's but nothing updated after that. I will update my story, if for nothing else but to save someone else's piece of mind (if mine ends up positively) when they're in my shoes.