She Passed!!!

Okay, so...she is home!! She passed the sleep study! She still has some breathing issues while feeding, she tries to eat too fast, so we learned a couple tricks to pace her a bit to help with reminding her to breathe. She is also on a monitor, which is a bit overwhelming, but I am really hoping she won't need it for long.

I do believe I just had my very first "omg, I'm actually a mommy" moment. I had a good cry for a change, not a "this situation sucks" cry. The feelings I have are amazing and a bit overwhelming.

I can't believe this little, living, breathing, adorable little girl is a perfect one-of-a-kind mix of me and Roger. No one else can make anything like her, she is ours. Does that make sense? It is a little difficult to put into words how I'm feeling, but it's all good.

Maybe it'll be different when I'm sleep deprived, lol.

Caring For Her

Just so we're updated: Sleep study is going on right now, I am at the hospital with her this time because Roger and I agreed that I am the best person to feed her and take the time needed to make sure she doesn't overdo it (choke or gag and limit reflux issues), and I am more nervous this time..

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God...I'm so nervous...I think this one is so much more nerve wracking than the first one... 

No More Talk

So...Katy had at least one episode last night. She had one on the evening of the 1st while I was holding her, and we were hoping it didn't mean what it meant a week ago because her heart or O2 didn't drop with it; However, the episode last night left her HR at 70 and O2 at 68.

The Dr. put her back on caffeine, and wasn't sounding real hopeful about her sleep study on Sunday. If she passes "with a B- or a C+" then she will be able to come home with a monitor and continue the caffeine for at least 2 months. If we don't want to trust it, and leave her here, it would be another 10 days to 2 weeks minimum...

This is the last I am going to talk about this, because every time someone mentions bringing her home, or how good she looks, or how good she is doing...she does something that scares me and makes me cry. I am leaving it at this, and will just update when she is actually home.

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Another Sleep Study

So…the update I have is that they are stopping the caffeine a day early: she gets her last dose tomorrow, and doing the sleep study again on Sunday. The sleep study will determine if she still needs a monitor (fail) or not (pass), but we are taking her home Monday!

I really hope she passes, and we don't have to mess with or worry about taking her home on a monitor, but regardless, I see the light at the end of this nightmare tunnel! Won't have her home for my Birthday, but at least I got good news for it...