Update on 30 Weeks

Yep, I'm 30 weeks. We saw Dr.S on Monday and she seemed very pleased with my progress on the meds 3 times a day. I had two really frustrating days last week, and she assured me that everything was okay. The part that has been frustrating for me is when I try really hard to watch what goes in my mouth, and my sugar levels shoot out of control...but it seems like on the days where I don't care as much what I eat, they're not so bad...(like eating potato soup and cake on the Saturday of our baby shower or chicken fried steak, mashed potatoes and white gravy for instance should have had that affect on me because those foods are a carb nightmare...)

The fear of my baby's health especially, but also being hospitalized while they figure out an insulin level to put me on sends me into a horrible frustrating depressive mood when I have high days, because I just feel like all my hard work is not good enough and that I'm doing Kay harm. It's really tough some days, but if my doctor says I'm doing okay, I need to listen to her, but that is hard too because I've just got this fear sitting in the back seat that I'm not doing good enough.

This (watching sugar levels, and what I eat and how often I eat, and how much I eat) feels like the hardest thing I've ever had to do, because it isn't just me being affected anymore. I wouldn't be nearly as frustrated if it were just my health on the line...

Anywho, Dr.S told my mom (I was making my next appointment, so I didn't actually hear this part) that she thinks Kay will come up to two weeks early. She is certain I won't make it to my due date. At the very least, one week early. So, we are looking at the end of November to the 10th of December. We are getting close! We'll just have to see what happens. We have an appointment with Dr. Stewart this coming Monday, so hopefully I'll have some pictures to post and a current weight on her.

Updates!

Babycenter.com: "Your baby's about 15.7 inches long now, and she weighs almost 3 pounds (like a head of cabbage). A pint and a half of amniotic fluid surrounds her, but that volume will decrease as she gets bigger and takes up more room in your uterus. Her eyesight continues to develop, though it's not very keen; even after she's born, she'll keep her eyes closed for a good part of the day. When she does open them, she'll respond to changes in light but will have 20/400 vision — which means she can only make out objects a few inches from her face. (Normal adult vision is 20/20.)"

Babiesonline.com: "Your baby's permanent teeth have developed and are waiting in his gums. Your baby is very aware of his surroundings and his eyelids will open and close. He will even look around and turn toward light. We tend to think of the uterus as a dark place but the uterus actually can be light and dark depending on your environment.

You may be able to distinguish sleeping and waking cycles in your baby. Although it usually seems as if the baby wants to sleep while you are awake, and vice versa, this is not indicative of a sleepless newborn. Your baby can not only hear your voice, but can recognize it. Also, he has a grip so strong it is capable of gripping your finger. At this point, your baby may be practicing nursing as he sucks his thumb. He has lungs that are capable of breathing air, although medical help may be needed. About 9 out of 10 babies born now will survive."

Thebump.com: "As baby's skin smooths out, her brain just keeps getting more wrinkled. All those grooves and indentations increase surface area, meaning more room for that oh-so-essential brain tissue. She's also adding some brawn -- her grip is now strong enough to grasp a finger."